this year has passed all too quickly. and not nearly enough time has been spent with the people around me. as time goes by, i must learn to survive despite the difficulty. and pray that the distance will be tollerable.
so, today i am back in oxford allbeit briefly. i was in cambridge for a visit for my sisters "birthday party" on thursday evening, and came back here on friday afternoon. and i have had quite a busy few days all in all.
on wednesday i had an interview for my potential position for next year with Crux Media and it struck me as i was in the car on the way home, that i am getting really stressed about where i will be next year, and what i will be doing and exactly what my job will be. and it's just silly. i dont need to be worrying about things like this at this point in my life. i need to begin to trust more. trust more that God has my life in his hands and that he will both guide me and protect me in my life and throughout my journey. and it's silly that i am wondering about where i will be in 15 years when for the first time in my life i am not tied down by anything or commited to being anywhere specific.
so today while driving (being driven) home from my youth group, i was feeling kinda gloomy as i have a very early morning tomorrow and am still not feeling on top of the world. my mood was changed however, when i glanced to the side out of the window and saw an absolutely stunning sight. a sky filled with clouds was streaked with gold and red while a lone tree remained black as it was shillouetted against the horizon. it was amazing. i was struck with how even in small and seemingly unimportant situations such as the setting of the sun. God can produce such amazing beauty that can make us want to stop and stare in wonder. i think that too often i let the world pass by in a blur as each event in my life blends into the next. i need to take more time to stop. let the world continue on it's merry way, and take some time. time for me, God and the beautiful world he has placed me on. let it not remain abandoned, taken for granted and unappreciated. let it be respected, admired and looked upon with awe.
for God looked at it and he saw the it was very good let us look, and glimpse but a fraction of the beauty he gifted us with when he first created our beautiful planet.